Slowly going over the thought that “finding yourself” or “making your mark” is a first world concept.
We are told to pursue what interests us. What if our interests fall short on the pay scale? Even if I wasn’t entirely money motivated, such interests can’t even sustain a lifestyle. I am no longer pursuing my own interests, but society’s interests. The world of academics has presented me with choices, and I have swallowed conformity’s dry pill.
Now I can see the lines begin to blur. I tell myself, “the world is your oyster” but then I begin to get lost in the details. “The system” tells me to aim high, but not too high. It tells me to narrow myself down, try to fit that square peg into that round hole.
They say a “job is a job” but I view it as livelihood. You are the job. Thus, I feel my identity slip.
If you disagree I encourage you to respond because my point of view is pretty negative right now.